I was physically, sexually, and emotionally abused because “This is God’s and Prabhupada’s Will”

Elizabeth Heather Zakheim aka Rupa Manhari Devi Dasi
Elizabeth Heather Zakheim aka Rupa Manjari devi dasi to the right. Nathan Zakheim aka Nara Narayan dasa Vishwakarma to the left.
Elizabeth Heather Zakheim aka Rupa Manjari devi dasi to the right. Nathan Zakheim aka Nara Narayan dasa Vishwakarma to the left.

i was just a child not yet healed from being sexually abused

My name is Elizabeth Heather Zakheim aka Rupa Manjari devi dasi. I am a member of ISKCON for over 10 years and a person who tried very hard to be a Vedic wife despite the fact that behind closed doors, I was physically and sexually assaulted by the man who was supposed to love and protect me – my husband, a much older and mentally disturbed individual, by the name of Nathan Zakheim aka Nara Narayan dasa Vishwakarma.

I just left an 8 year marriage in which I was physically, sexually, emotionally, verbally and psychologically abused on a constant basis. Nathan used brainwashing and guilt to shame me into marrying him, even though I was a young and naive girl of 23, saying that “This is God’s and Prabhupada’s Will” until after 7 months I gave in, feeling trapped.

He then proceeded to continuously brainwash me with Krishna Conscious rhetoric, and abuse the Sastras (Vedic Scripture) in order to try to have as much sex as possible. He refused to do any work at all, even though in the past he made millions of dollars in the art restoration business, with the result that we had zero income for almost the entire marriage. Consequently I lived for 8 years in poverty, having to turn to the government for welfare, food stamps, and health insurance. Were it not for these, my children and I would have starved.

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I tried to leave him several times before, but out of financial need, and fear, and his nonstop brainwashing, I went back to him. I left him for the final time in December 2015, after he gave me a black eye. I had a restraining order and a lock-out order placed upon him by the court of Santa Monica, but he violated both orders by breaking and entering our former apartment, and seizing anything of value, and taking all of the money I had in the world – $700 — a well as my laptop computer (which later he returned).

My children are with family members as I am penniless and struggling to survive. I was literally starving between December and January, and suffered a complete and total nervous breakdown, from which I am gradually recovering.

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I need a lot of help to rebuild my life, to procure a living space, and to prove to the courts that I am fit to care and have custody for my children. I need funds to cover utilities and other living expenses such as food, clothing, etc.

Please help me at this critical juncture as I have ABSOLUTELY NO MONEY. I have literally $30 to my name and I am sleeping on a couch in Oregon.

I am sincerely trying to rebuild a healthy, peaceful, productive life for me and my children. Please help me by donating to this fund.

Thank you.

Chronology of Events:

Date: October 26, 2010

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Date: December 29, 2013

This is what demons do:
-Eat meat
-Intoxicate
-Have illicit sex
-And gamble.

-Rupa Manjari Devi Dasi

Date: January 1, 2013

Anyone who deviates from Srila Prabhupada is cent per cent BOGUS!

-Rupa Manjari Devi Dasi

Date: September 17, 2015

As a devotee of Krishna of ten years, and having given joyfully so much to our community during that time, I strangely now find myself in the position of need.

Many of you know that I have struggled with marital discord which culminated in severe abuse throughout the course of my marriage. However I have reached my limit, and I need to save my infant and child, and get us all to safety. Therefore I have left my husband Nathan Zakheim aka Nara Narayan dasa Vishwakarma permanently.
Fortunately we have procured safe harbor for now, but we lack any funds for startup and potential legal expenses. I only ask for transitional help, as I fully expect to be on my feet within a few months.

I have set up this gofundme account for this purpose. If you can help me and my family at this critical time I would greatly appreciate it. Rest assured these funds will not be used for my project The Brahman Cow Project, which is now on hold for the time being.

I can be reached at (310) 706-8039 or ehzakheim@gmail.com.
Thank you.

Date: October 31, 2015

Happy Halloween, everyone!

On this day I am meditating on all manner of scary and spooky things. My daughter is going as a witch this evening for trick-or-treating (my first celebration of this holiday in as long as I can remember – certainly since before I was married in 2007). I am therefore considering what the symbology really is behind witches, witchcraft, etc.: Dark forces in the world compelling us to sinful or Adharmic (against Godly action) behaviors, which thereby contaminate and degrade our lives.

I am thinking of one person who strikes me as having these “witchy” qualities, who has been responsible for leading me to believe things about my husband, with whom she has taken issue with since he married me in 2007, that were utterly untrue and hideously disrespectful. This person has abused me since I was a child, but out of sheer need for survival (having no father present), I still turned to with a lifelong yearning for an approval which would never be granted, thereby creating within me from an early age a codependency to emotional abuse.

That person is my mother, who is taking advantage of the most recent destructive blow-out between my husband and myself, by hiring 2 attorneys to try to win legal guardianship of our 2 children in a case which will culminate in the Los Angeles courthouse on January 7th.

My mother instigated this blowout, doing her ever typical tirade of insults against my husband and manipulating me against him so that I would actually end up engineering the very “horrible abuse” that she wanted him to be guilty of — but naturally, was not.

My husband loves me. And he is an amazing person. And he is the first person who cared enough about me to marry me, and take care of me, and teach me right from wrong, and teach me about Krishna Consciousness, the Supreme Absolute Truth.

I realize now that on one level my mom probably believes what she is saying, because she is a product of a culture that fosters in women the disgusting idea that they are equal to or superior to men, and who therefore feel justified in utterly using and abusing men, artificially imitating them, cheating them, dishonoring them, and ultimately divorcing them, even if there are children involved who have the absolute need to be taught the example of how to live their lives by their parents.

(Divorce is at least partially responsible for a vast number of increasing problems in society, such as homosexuality, child abuse, drug abuse, atheism, sex addiction, and infidelity.)

However she took things to a much higher level, being a genuine functional psychopath, atheist, drug addict, and antisocial personality. She sees me as her property, and nemesis, who she has sought to destroy since birth, such as through starvation, neglect, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, etc.

(I have read about such people in tabloids, but they are so rare as to hardly be encountered in daily life.)

The number one thing my mother should have been saying to me since I was married was precisely what all scripture declares the world over: Honor thy husband. Cleave to him. Let nothing come between you.

Instead, I was told the complete opposite from day one. And it was hard for me to surrender to him fully, being thus disapproved of by the person from whom I yearned for approval, having not yet come to terms with the fact that this person is incapable of real nurturing feeling.

This created a problem for me in that it has taken me 8 years to come to the point of actually being able to let go of this lifelong obsession with wanting my mother’s love, with the realization that a) it will never be granted, and b) that it is not worth wanting anyway.

What matters is my family — my real family. That means my husband, our children, and our life together. Anyone who dares criticize me, my husband or our children is an enemy and against my best interests.

So on this day of Halloween, I would like to say that I am a recovering witch. I’ve been a witch to my husband and blinded by lies perpetuated on virtually every level, starting with my mother, and throughout society, over the course of my life.

I have recommitted myself 100% to my marriage, and will not be associating with my mother any more. It is simply not worth it. And, I have a world to save from the effects of modern corporatism and greed.

So, stay tuned.

Wishing you all fun and a safe evening,

Sincerely,

Rupa Manjari devi dasi

Date: January 9, 2016

I was a victim of pedophilia as a young child…so i was programmed for being fucked by a much older man. and Nathan is a known abuser of women AND children…so yah, it was a strong profile match

-Rupa Manjari Devi Dasi
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Date: February 8, 2016

My beautiful Mata…. Saving my life!
-Rupa Manjari Devi Dasi

Elizabet Heather Zahein and her Mother
Elizabeth Healther Zaheim and her Mother.

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